Weight loss. For real this time. Again...again...

So, right now it's attempt number 347 to try to hit 190 lbs. In times before I've reached lows of 205, 215, 205 again, and even 199!!!. All were on separate endeavors to achieve my goal. I'm once again determined to reach a slim and trim 190 lbs. And perhaps even lower. Each time I've tried seems easier than the last. It's becoming less about will power and more about long term focus. I get distracted and I literally forget that I'm trying to make a lifestyle change. I'll go 3 weeks on a new diet and then I'll get invited to a pizza party and I completely forget to remind myself that it's a bad idea. I've really let myself go this time. I got up to 235 lbs. So, I have to drop 45 lbs to reach my goal. It actually helps that I'm going to school because it keeps my mind busy and distracted from food. I tend to eat out of boredom. I need to be entertained by the fact that I'm looking better in the mirror every day. I'm going to buy myself a bottle of Jack Daniels Tennessee Honey as a reward for reaching 190 lbs. I know, I know, healthy right? But, seriously.......losing 45 lbs and drinking Jack Daniels is WAY healthier than staying at 235 lbs. I also think I'm going to buy a nice shirt as my "Goal shirt" that I can only wear when I hit 190 lbs. I'm probably going to use this blog as a diet journal from here on out. I'm sure it will help me reach my goal.